Currently Listening Fallen By Evanescence see related

misery

nothing is going right...

the way it should've been..

everything's gone wrong...

its all back again...

before, it was safe...

now its just wrong...

this feelings churning...

its always my fault...

i should stop trying...

but that would be wrong...

fuck favors...

i don't need you...

do you even care?

it seems that when things are going good,

praised i am...

but when things go downhill...

hated i am...

blamed i am...

wronged i feel...

with this feeling comes self-doubt...

measuring my self-worth...

i think, what am i to others?

a burden?

a paper maker?

a failure?

but of course, its "not" true...

'how could i even possibly think it?'

but of course,

i will cry tonight...

and forget it in the morning.

©c.l.h. 4.11.06

Currently Watching Closer (Superbit Edition) see related

Betrayel

thanks for 'helping' me out.

doing this and that for me.

i really appreciate it.

even though,

it all didn't turn out as expected.

do me a favor though.

don't promise me anything else.

you'll end up breaking it.

just..

thanks.

©c.l.h. feb 06'

Currently Listening Stories and Alibis By Matchbook Romance see related

i don't know why,

the tears filled my eyes,

when you asked 'are you alright'

i said 'yes' as the tears began to fall.

you sounded worried.

i said 'i'm just exhausted'.

i don't know why i play this game.

why i keep up this charade.

everything isn't alright.

and i don't know why.

©C.L.H. 3.17.06

Currently Listening Origin of Symmetry By Muse see related

Not Goodbye

it makes me sad,
to think i may never see you again.
i know i should be optimistic.
buts its just not in me to be.
i don't want to say goodbye.
the word brings tears to my eyes.
see you, see you is much better.
it will give me hope.
it may not exist,
but i'll pretend for my sake.
until next time my friend,
see you, see you.

©c.l.h. 06'

Currently Listening Hurt/Personal Jesus By Johnny Cash see related

hurt...

make them go away..

these fears won't stop..

it has become unbearable..

no more happiness..

only sadness..

i hurt..